ehm..ottoke?

assalam... halllu... da lame rase x update...last was august kn...weell bz with postings and all.... skrg is the 1st week stdy leave bfore my finals on d 31st....huu...byk terjadi mnggu2 last mase posting nak abes... tatau nk stat...ehm just smthing nak tnya readers...(if ade yg bace...huhuhu..)ehm...like my frens are together studying in a study group...then diorg ajak lah join setelah aku dpt tau...pnjg lg cerite...tp dun want to tell everything to evryone...so....adkah aku salah if aku still rase segan n mnyibuk utk join?even if diorg ajak...we dont know what lies in the human hearts kan?sooo mase 1st nyte aku di ajak tu obviously aku x pegi an...then second tyme diajak...aku dlm bilik..da siap pki tudung n everything...tbe2 aku dngo pntu umah dtutup...hmm...then aku msg lah...tnye diorg da pegi ke...then diorg kate da...so...aku katr tape lah... they said aku snyap je n dats y diorg x ketuk pntu aku n pnggil...humm...tatau lah...i was watching anime mase tu...psang agk kuat...x ke courtesy pngg trun if btol2 nk ajak aku pegi??so....hati aku pon terluka laah...so what should i do....aku nk join...tp hati aku rase mcm diorg tanak bg je aku join...tau x aku rase segan gile n mnyibuk gila bila org x ajak...so xkn aku nk pegi terhegeh2 tnya diorg nk joinkn??diorg kate dioorg nk ajak aku stdy together actually...tp x rase mcm tu pon...hmmm...im at loss...aku mmg jenis org yg terlmpau pk perasaan org laen and anggapan org towards me...so dats y jd mcm ni...d reason aku tulis pon aku terbace tweet sorg tu...die kate nk smthing tnjuk effort lah...die marah plak...aku da taktau nk wat ape...org yg aku rase ptot paham aku...slalu pndg remeh perasaan aku n anggap aku annoying n attention seeker...hummm...so pd aku d best result utk aku x skit ati...n diorg x ikhlas terime if aku join stdy grp...is stdy je sorg2...so aku kene rajin...n byk doa pd Allah...agar ilmu yg aku pelajari diberkati... aku mntk maaf if ade kwan2 yg bace n rase aku ni sgt mnja ke annoying ke mnyusahkn ke...sbb aku da taatau nk luah pd sape...aku mmg rase keseorangan....u can feel bile diri ni mcm 3rd wheel...bile cnversation occur...it does not include u...bila berborak...da x ckp ngn aku...so dpt rase aku sape pd dorg...aku actually terkilan ngn sorg je...daku harap kte dpt jd cam dulu...bila ade prob tros cnfront...tp aku x rase yakin da nk cte or luahkn perassaan kt ko sbb ko mcm jauh dr aku...n mcm da x nk faham or layan aku.... aku mntk maaf pd sesiapa saje yg bce post ni...doakn aku lulus exam final ni... ~~hypersensitivity reaction type one to exams~~~ annayeong...wassalam...